Cake Baking

As my son's birthday parties near, my time is spent making cakes... I so badly just wanna lick the beaters!! I don't think I'll be able to even try the cake! I've been really good the five days since starting my diet. I did have a moment of weakness last night and have a lean pasta with chicken meal last night. I've just not been able to satisfy my stomach lately and thought that might do.. It's lean and portioned controlled. However, as it taste yummy, the stomach ache was not so pleasant! Which I take as a good sign!! My son's even starting to enjoy my little diet. My boyfriend, on the other hand, likes to make foods he knows I want and eat them right next to me, letting me smell it and making "yum" noises the first few bites just to tempt me. He finds it hilarious, I find it frustrating!! He doesn't think there's anything wrong with how we eat. In his eyes, if he still wants to hop into bed with me, there's nothing wrong. He's gonna find something wrong with his bank account when I spend his money on new clothes since all mine are getting to snug!! 

I go to see the doctor in a week or so and I have to get bloodwork. My last work-up was bad. My doctor has never comment on my weight whatsoever (he got smart after I screamed at his nurse for telling me that I "may have enjoyed my holiday season a bit too much") but he is concerned with other factors of my health. I just want to be able to live my life and not worry that I'm killing myself with what I put into my body! And frankly, after I'm starting to feel this week, I think I was slowly killing myself with the foods. Some of the foods in moderate portions are necessary, but first I want to learn how to control my healthy eatings before I try to incoporate any junk into my life again.

My body is finally starting to adjust to the foods but it's still not happy with what it's getting! I thought if maybe I start exercising (a walk here and there) that things will get better but I'm not ready to over do it yet. So many times before have I tried dieting and exercise. I just get burned out too quickly. I've seen on so many talk shows about how you do changes gradually and ONE STEP AT A TIME. Life is all about one step at a time! I'm not gonna push myself too hard. I need to take my time if I'm actually going to make changes. For once in my life I'm not looking for those quick results... Yes it would be awesome to lose 15 lbs in a week or drop a pant size in a month, whatever. I know if I stick to this, I'm gonna see great results all around. I'll get there one day, but today, I need a rubberband around my wrist to slap myself every time I wanna lick the batter!!

The Beginning

For months now I've been talking about ways to get healthier. I've seen thousands of people talking about weight loss and all that. So finally, I decided to commit to changing my habits. I started yesterday. Of course I had to go grocery shopping anyway but it just lead to testing my strength to not stockpile garbage in my house. Today, my boys complained because there wasn't anything "good" to eat in the house. I still bought them some junk foods but only things that I felt wouldn't temp me as much. I have been excited over this. I'm ready to get healthy. I felt great yesterday bypassing chips, cookies, crackers, etc. However, today I feel a little blaaah!! I'm tired, cranky and just all around hungry!! I researched on the internet for foods that speed up metabolism and make you feel more full. But I can't help but thinking of ways to make the foods more appealing (i.e. apples... with caramel, salad... with ranch.) I did, however, resist the temptation to chow down on frozen pizza tonight, I just couldn't resist pulling off a few pepperonis!! I am very determined to get myself eating healthier for the sake of my 3 year old. He's a picky eater and I don't want him only eating junk. Tonight I got him to try a black berry... As soon as he swallowed he started moaning "ow. oooh. ow" and holding his belly. Then he drops to his hands and knees "shaking"(reminded me of a cat with a fur ball). Then he stood up and started playing like he didn't just over dramatize the fruit. That to me gives me even more willpower to do this. I don't want him acting like fruits are poison. Not all his eating habits are bad, he does love grapes, cottage cheese and apples. But he also likes fries, pizza and chips! 

My plan:
Fruits - Mainly berries and citrus
Yogurts 
Smoothies
Meats/Poultry prepared by boil or grilling
Green Teas
Truvia sweetener (Can't drink tea or coffee without sweetener!!)
Vegies (greens)
Low fat Dairy
Eggs
Water

So far I've been good with fruit for breakfast, yogurt for lunch and a fresh spinach salad with small cubes of steak (not even an ounce) and a berry vinaigrette. (Certain oils and vinegars contain vitamins and substances that help to speed metabolism and break down fats). Of course that's all portion controlled with a few snacks in there at a reasonable time between meals. However, I'm coming across the problem of sometimes when I get my food prepared and prepare my family's, my son tends to eat parts of mine - like eating the cottage cheese off my salad. I have always said he makes it easy to eat less because he eats my food!